6/14/2011

When the last of the my three alarm clocks went off yesterday morning I seriously considered rolling back over and calling it a day. Getting up and getting out of bed was going to take some serious will power or possibly even an act of congress. I literally had to give myself a pep talk just to sit up.

After a shower and the makeup skills of a five year old, I finally drug the rest of me downstairs and into my office. I sat down at my desk, looked around and promptly decided that I certainly did not posses the necessary skill set to make it through an entire work day. I had no idea what to blame my complete lack of energy on but then again my give a damn was apparently marked as absent during roll call this morning too.

Somewhere around 1:00 pm I raised my little white flag and accepted defeat. I grabbed my purse and headed for the door. I had a prescription to pick up at CVS and since my period was also missing in action I went ahead and picked up a pregnancy test just for good measure. A part of me already knew that I was pregnant, but a much bigger part of me dismissed the idea completely.

As I was sitting at a stop light on my way home an unidentified flying object attacked my face. Something flew into my car and across my face at the speed of light. I had no idea what had just flown into my car but at the time I was more concerned with where it had landed. After a small thud I looked around waiting for this mysterious creature to introduce itself. Nothing. Fear set in. In a panic I rolled the windows down and thrust my body as close to the driver’s side door as possible. I just knew that this thing was going to attack me at any moment. I drove home in silence with only one eye opened as I winced at every sound I heard.

I finally made it into the parking garage of our building and jumped out of my car as if it were on fire. I located the tiny key chain flashlight that Jeremy had given me and began my forensic intensive search for the unwanted passenger in my car. After what I thought was a thorough search and inspection I still couldn’t find my little hitchhiker. I began to wonder if I had made the entire thing up or if days from now I would be attacked unsuspectingly while driving down the highway. I closed the doors, rolled up the windows and grabbed my CVS bag to head inside. Something told me to look inside the plastic bag. I softly opened up the bag and peered down into the bottom of it. A small brown and yellow butterfly sat quietly inside.

I set the plastic bag down on the floor of the parking garage and gently let the little guy out. He quickly scurried out and then moments later flew away. Some people believe that a butterfly is the personification of a person's soul....Meaning that if you see a butterfly, it might just be someone that has passed away visiting you or bringing you good luck. I burst into tears. I knew in that exact moment that I was actually pregnant.

Not only had a butterfly flown into my car but it had actually dive bombed my CVS bag. This was no mistake or coincidence. A positive pregnancy test minutes later confirmed that Jeremy and I were in fact expecting and with that baby makes three.